sebentar lagi aku 27
sama seperti mereka
cobain, hendrix, morrison, phoenix
para pemimpi yg mendambakan kebahagian
tapi kebahagian seharusnya tak perlu dicari
bukankah kebahagiaan itu tak pernah ada?

seharusnya aku tahu
seharusnya aku tahu

sebentar lagi aku 27
aku mulai mengerti pikiran mereka
mangkanya aku selalu menatap ke bawah
ternyata bumi bukan hanya untuk dipijak
untuk maya yang lebih nyata daripada realita
haruskah aku berakhir seperti mereka?

seharusnya aku tahu
seharusnya aku tahu

 

 

fear of loving
loving to fear
i am death
pelican new breath
black rose petals
stained blood red
painful memories
a new reincarnation

rebirth
what's become
vengeance
not what i need
love
why am i here???
redemption is the end

night sleepering
a night of death
a night of thousand memories
"sometimes it doesn't rain"
whats make me guilty

dont diserve of these
happyness is emptiness
real pain is love
real love is pain
REAL PAIN IS TRUE
REAL LOVE IS FOREVER

Apakah benar saat2 ini?
99% menolak, diam & keras
Tapi jejak telah tertanam
Kegemilangan langit pun telah berlalu
Kepekatan lumpur telah terasa

Belajar untuk hidup
Angka2 memang menggiurkan
Kebutuhan tak terbatas
Namun teras yg nyaman yg harus ada
Berkumpul bersama sahabat
Saling bercermin
Menata diri bersamaNya

Trus, trus & mungkin......
Kan melayang jauh ke angkasa
Bersama-sama.....
Segala sesuatu ada waktunya
Cukup....an
Seperti kataMu.

S.A.H

I feet my own pet virus today
And im still don't know whats her name
Gabriel, send me your wings that you promise me
To aniversery my obituary birthday

This is my denial for own happyness
Unconditional yet so goddamn comfortable

Wake up again in the midnight
Wiling temptation lack in the graveyard
See burn elephant dancing on the piano
I should i know dont take a candy from stranger

08.07.05
16:32

Everyday is the same, hii morning child
back to your bed, continue your dreams
admire the gloomy, love the silent
every one happy, no body distrubed

They behind me stabbing my back
go away, find another preacher!
too long waiting for the answer
i keep standing here until i drowning

Another suitcase come to my avoil
the official say it in front of my face
let it be our last seduction in this memory
like there is tomorow never come

Now as I open my eyes to start another day
I'm in a pile of puke
Empty bag of execuses
My love for friends and family
you know I need them